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When James Brown, 32, kissed his wife Katrina,
30, that morning, he had no idea it would be their last goodbye.
'From an early age we're told that there's someone
out there for everyone, it's just a matter of finding them. And the
moment we do, our lives will change for ever. It's a lovely thought,
but growing up, I didn't believe a word of it.
As a teenager, all I cared about was the next big
party and finding a pretty girl. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't looking
to leave a trail of broken hearts behind me, but settling down wasn't on my
mind either.
But everything changed on 28 September 1996.
I was 20 and had just arrived in Salamanca, Spain, with a university friend,
to study Spanish. I'd only been there two weeks when my mate John
arranged to meet me for a drink. Even now, 12 years on, I can still
remember the moment I walked into that smoky bar. John was in the
corner, swigging from a bottle.
That's when I saw her - a girl with beautiful,
curly blonde hair and the most amazing smile. I was transfixed
and for the next few minutes, I couldn't take my eyes off her as she
absentmindedly tucked a stray curl behind her ear, then threw back her head
and laughed. I must've been waiting to be served for five minutes
before John caught my eye and beckoned me over.
Her name was Katrina and, like me, she was
English, aged 20 and studying Spanish at Salamanca University. For the
rest of the night we didn't stop laughing - we arranged to have coffee the
following day.
From that point, we were pretty much inseparable,
but only as friends, It wasn't until two months later that I finally
told her how I felt. Her big grin told me everything I needed to know.
We got together that night. There was no looking back.
Over the next year our relationship just got
better and better. We returned home to London and I got a job working
for a Japanese trading house, while Katrina was working as an underwriter.
We moved in together and I felt so lucky. She was my world.
After five years, she was the person I most looked forward to seeing every
day.
Two years later, in September 2003, I proposed and
a year after that we got married with 140 guests. We settled into
married life easily and bought a beautiful three-bedroom home in Kent, which
we redecorated together. But redesigning an entire house from scratch
wasn't enough to occupy Katrina and she started doing more exercise to stay
in shape. As a couple, we'd always been quite active, but over the
next two years, Katrina regularly went to yoga, swimming and tennis lessons
and I joined her for jogging.
It was Christmas 2006, following three days of
stuffing ourselves, when she made me promise to take part in a charity run
in London as a New Year's resolution. As we waited at the starting
line of the 10km race five months later, I grabbed Katrina round the waist
and pulled her in towards me. I remember smoothing her hair away from
her face, then giving her a huge hug.
'I'll be waiting for you at the finishing line,'
she joked, before disappearing into the mass of runners. Forty-eight
minutes later, I was at the finishing line scanning the crowds for her
familiar blonde curls.
Suddenly two paramedics ran past, so I followed in
case there was something wrong with Katrina, not really imagining there
would be. As I moved closer I could see a medic bending over someone
on the floor, blue trainers poking out from his legs. I stopped and
put my hand to my mouth. It was Katrina. 'That's my wife!' I
yelled. 'What's wrong with her?'
At first I thought she'd just fainted, but then I
saw the paramedic pressing down on her chest in short, sharp spurts as he
tried to resuscitate her. And that's when I started to scream.
As I took a deep breath in and screamed, two stewards grabbed my arms and
pulled me back.
I called out her name as they tried to move me
away. 'Katrina, I'm here,' I cried over and over again. 'I'm
right here, babe.' I had no idea what was going on or why.
Feeling helpless and desperate, I tried to grab Katrina's hand as paramedics
lifted her on to a stretcher. I followed behind the ambulance in a
police van to London's Guy's Hospital. But it was too late.
When the doctor told me Katrina had died, I felt
as if my life had ended with hers. At that point they didn't know why
she'd died. It didn't matter; she was gone and I was still here.
I couldn't take it in. Only that morning we'd thrown on our running
gear and caught the train into London, teasing each other about who would
win.
As I left the hospital, my parents asked me to
stay with them, but I wanted to be in our home so that I could feel close to
Katrina. We'd left a packet of chicken defrosting on the kitchen
counter, ready for our dinner. Now I was facing life alone. You can't
prepared for that, you don't expect it.
A few weeks later, a doctor explained that Katrina
had died from Sudden Adult Death Syndrome (SADS), caused by an undiagnosed
heart condition. It seemed so cruel. She did everything right -
she ate well, exercised regularly. What was the point?
Ten days later I stood in the same church where
Katrina and I had been married, this time for her funeral. I went back
to work the day after, but already I'd stopped caring about everything that
wasn't Katrina. I tried watching our wedding video just to hear her
voice, but it left me feeling distraught.
As I learnt more about SADS, I started fundraising
for CRY (Cardiac Risk in the Young). Within three weeks we'd raised
£25,000 and in the past two years, with the help of friends and
family, we've hit the £140,000 mark. Two years on, I'm only just
finding it possible to talk and think about Katrina and to feel happy.
I'll always count myself lucky to have found her and loved her in the first
place.
Nothing can ever take that away.
SADS: THE FACTS
Eight young people aged 35 and under die from
Sudden Adult Death Syndrome every week and the figure is rising.
The majority of SADS deaths are in young men -
nine men to every woman.
Close blood relatives of SADS victims should
check that they don't suffer from similar conditions.
One in 250 young people in the UK harbours a
potentially life-threatening cardiac condition.
For more information, call 01737 363 222
or visit www.c-r-y.org.uk
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